Two Days of Updates

TODAY:
AHHHHHHH! I HATE MY BROTHER SOOOO MUCH. All he does is bitch about me. Okay, so I simply asked him to remove himself from the computer, which he'd been on since I left for work, and he all flipped out on me, and then my mom came and they fought, and he finally got off, after which he came up to me and said "And for your approval, the only fucking working computer on the planet", and then he stomped upstairs and now I can hear him bitching about how I'm the favorite and he's a bad kid and blahdeblahblahblah, and how I"m such a bitch and I lie and I should just be shot and pushed off a cliff...grr. I'm gonna go cry now. Asshole. Fucking ingrateful bastard.

I hate living in my house, because this is what happens every fucking day. And my parents wonder why I'm so goddamn depressed.


AUGUST 31ST
Grr. This so totally sucks. While we used to fight occasionally....it's turned into every fucking time we see eachother, we're fighting. I don't know...he's just turned into such an arrogant bastard, and I can't stand it. I wish I had my old brother back...the one who would sit in my room with me and play Barbies or make up stupid games to play, or just hug me when I would cry and tell me I was so much better than what people said. Now all I have is this angry, dark guy who yells at me, and tells me the things I like are stupid. I can't take it much longer. It's gotten to the point where I'll tell him how I feel...and dinner turns into a yelling match. And as weird as it sounds...I want my brother back, not this shell that looks like him.

I still need a Homecoming Date. Not really all that important...just something I'd like to experience...you know, a REAL date...where he buys dinner, and treats me well, holds the door open for me.Whatever.

Concentrating on getting over what my dad fondly calls "Illinois Syndrome". Basically, as the seasons change, I get stuffed up and I sneeze a lot. It sucks.

Sarah Jane cracked my back today. It felt really good, but it still twinges in my chest and upper back when I turn right.

I'm applying at Chuck E. Cheese tomorrow. Well, getting an application. I'll go in for open interviews in two weeks, since I have some sort of appointment after school next Tuesday.

I guess that's it for now.


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